My little world

Makes no sence to you .. but it does to me

2008-03-04T17:40:00.003+02:00

I so couldn`t give a fuck more !

but in my head there`s this song that keeps sayin` "I couldn`t love you more ... "

...

2008-01-17T17:31:00.000+02:00

I was just thinking about how time passes .. and we don`t even notice .. But if we take a second and think about it .. we see how most of the things have changed ..

It`s like .. you`re this cute puffy yellow duckling, and time is like the wind always blowing in your face .. Sometimes it knocks you back, it being stronger, and you`re just a poor ducky .. but you have to get up and try to move on .. And slowly your fluffy exterior gets blown away, piece by piece, lost in time, unveiling your first feathers .. And still, moving on, at some point .. you`ll stop, look at yourself and see that everything around you changed .. The fluffy ball that you once were will only remain a fading memory ..

Anyway, I just wanted to post a quote form a beautiful movie that I MUST see again, sometime soon ... The Shawshank Redemption .. But apparently I ended up talking about some other thing .. again .. :) ..

I have to remind myself that some birds aren't meant to be caged. Their feathers are just too bright. And when they fly away, the part of you that knows it was a sin to lock them up DOES rejoice. Still, the place you live in is that much more drab and empty that they're gone. I guess I just miss my friend.

Dar e ... !!!!

2008-01-16T14:13:00.000+02:00

Oh god .. this definitely deserves its own little post :)) .. Me and Danii were just talking .. and .. we ran into some fooonny words like ... "Stofa" and "Shaiba~" (on shaiba~ we laughed our asses off on new years party) :))

Dar e STOFA !!!

.. it`s just like .. "awww ain`t that cuuuute .. but it`s WRONG !" .. "But it`s STOFA !!!" :))

(Stofa is the name of some material .. that we both don`t like :) .. it`s just wrong for so many reasons)

Melpomene

2008-01-16T13:46:00.001+02:00

:) Heys !

.. a new quote of the day .. goes to Danii :)

Ioana: like the song ?
Danii: yeah
Danii: sounded cool
Danii: is convins ca maine o sa mi placa si mai tare

(the last line means "I`m sure that tomorrow I`ll like it even more")

And of course the song I`m talking about is gonna be on this blog :P .. Very very nice song .. Kashmir - Melpomene :D ... I didn`t want to listen to the song at first cause I wasn`t in the mood .. but when I actually got to listen to it I was in love with it :P .. So yea .. started to throw it to my friends :D

Here`s the song.. enjoy ! :D It`s been a long time since I heard such a nice song :D

Thanks to the people who shared the song ;)

.. /die

2008-01-12T14:50:00.000+02:00

So .. I reaaaally don`t understand people anymore.
It`s like, I get a present, and they keep asking me oh do you like it, bla bla bla .. and although I don`t really like it .. I pretend and say yea sure it`s nice thank you and shit .. just cause it`s polite. Plus I am really annoyed by the present but still .. I shut the fuck up and move on ..
After 3 days, they come and keep bugging me with the fucking present.. Like .. "oh my god, do you really like the present ? cause I got the feeling you didn`t and bla bla bla .. " .. and I`m like .. "well .. yea .. it`s oki ... but .. " .. and start telling why I don`t really really like it .. but still I apreciate the gesture and such .. And then they get mad .. cause they can`t face the reality .. You bought someone crap !
That`s what you get for not asking first ! .. Plus .. why the fuck do you keep pushing it ? If people lie, they get a bad reputation .. and all that shit .. If people actually tell the truth to your face, you get upset and they are the bastards.

For fuck sake, if you can`t handle the truth don`t fucking ask for it !
It`s not just the present case today .. it`s everything .. If someone asks you "does this look good on me ?" what the fuck do they expect ? The truth from a friend "take it off it looks like shit" .. or they just wanna get it from a complete stranger ?
So people .. if you don`t wanna know the truth .. don`t ask for it !

.. and btw .. it was my birthday .. thanks to all the people who actually were kind enough to remember .. Yea I know it happens .. I also forget about birthdays sometimes .. but still :) ..

.. Anyway .. have a happy year and stuff like that ! .. Since this is my first post from 2008 .. it`s bullshit anyway ! ..

.. LEARN ! ..

Tag, you`re it :)

2007-09-17T17:36:00.000+03:00

.. yea .. well .. am primit tag de la Anya .. bine .. cred ca nu e primul, dar cred ca au mai fost in perioada in care mi-era cam lene de orice legat de blog .. So .. de data asta..

.. one of the best songs, in my oppinion ..

Enjoy ! .. Si .. dau mai departe la .. hmm .. Vlaaad !

Don`t you want somebody to love ?

2007-09-16T15:28:00.000+03:00

When the truth is found to be lies .. and all the joy inside you dies ..

this lyrics keep following me .. they are not only in my head, they were with me last night .. Saw things in a way, everything was almost ok .. woke up to one reality, and a few hours later it turned out to be .. completely different .. everything gets fucked up .. including you .. How the FUCK do you even have the nerve .. to ask "don`t you want somebody to love" .. Who in his right mind would want that ? .. I just want to get the fuck away from everything, and she`s all like "you`d better find somebody to love" .. Isn`t that ironic ? .. Don`t you think ? A little too ironic .. (see the lyrics in a previous entry) .. Too many ironic stuff goin` on ..
Don`t even know what to say .. Just like in that movie, Antenna .. it`s like someone stole my words .. then dried them up and sold them as cookies from door to door.. Wouldn`t that be a hell of an idea ? .. I think I`ll just buy the 18+ boxes .. More "fuck off"s there, and "leave me the fuck alone" .. Maybe a bunch of "i don`t fucking care", "don`t give a shit anymore".. Actually, I`d like a few of them boxes of "fuck".. I`ll manage with just that word

I miss dancing on the beach .. :( .. No lies there .. no bullshit, just you, the breeze, the waves.. the sand that gets absolutely everywhere .. and a lot of people having fun .. You don`t like someone there, well .. doesn`t matter .. you`ll probably never see him again.. You like someone ? .. Well .. you`ll probably see him every year :) You`ll just have a lot of time to be free .. of worries, of everything .. a lot of time to dream .. Dream about making your room a little sand box, with fishing nets and sea shells.. Sleeping on your own private beach every night, looking at the moon through your window .. and dreaming .. (yea .. gotta love that idea of Vlad.. although I laughed, I still can`t wait to see your dream come real.. go for it !) .. But some dreams just remain dreams, and they make you happy by just .. being there .. in your head ..

.. I am sorry ..

.. sorry .. forgot the answer .. NO !

Just myself, just a walk ..

2007-06-20T22:44:00.000+03:00

ey, haven`t posted anything in a few days. I said I`ll post some quotes of the day, but .. I haven`t :P .. so .. here are some quotes for the previous days :) ..
- said by some friends to me:
"it`s like I`m dating the male you"
"da de fapt nici nush de ce vb cu tine, ca tu esti fata"
- by me:
"o inconstienta de`aia mai constienta"
I had a few more but didn`t write them down so .. I forgot :D ..

oh yeah .. a special feature quote..

"She`s talking anout what happened. That`s huge. You did good.
Everyone is gonna tell you that`s what we got to make her do. We gotta help her right ? Except we can`t .. we drag out her story, we tell each other that we help her heal, and feel really good about ourselfs .. but all we`ve done is make a girl cry .. "

In an other order of business, I`ve been out takin` some pictures.. of pigeons !

(click for larger images)

Mutley, you snickering, floppy eared hound.
When courage is needed, you're never around.
Those medals you wear on your moth-eaten chest
Should be there for bungling at which you are best.

So, stop that pigeon
Stop that pigeon
Stop that pigeon
Stop that pigeon
Stop that pigeon
Stop that pigeon
Stop that pigeon
Howwww!

Nab him
Jab him
Tab him
Grab him
Stop that pigeon now.

You, silly, stop snickering, it's not worth the chance.
For you'll be returned by the seat of your pants.
And clunk, you invent me a thingamabob
That catches that pigeon or I lose my job.

So, stop that pigeon
Stop that pigeon
Stop that pigeon
Stop that pigeon
Stop that pigeon
Stop that pigeon
Stop that pigeon
Howwww!

Nab him
Jab him
Tab him
Grab him
Stop that pigeon now.

.. hihi .. don`t you just love the old cartoons ? :D

OK, so this entry is getting really really long :) .. I think you`re gettin` bored.
It was a nice day, got a bit of sunburn on my nose, and my arms .. but it`s ok, cause my skin is still hangin` on .. So people, better not leave the house without sun screen, cause that sun`s a killer :P ..
Oh, almost forgot, to mention my friend Ada, and her Birthday .. Happy Birthday ! >:D< .. Hope you had a great one ;) .. the weather sure smiled for you today :D .. and last but not least .. why that entry title ? .. Just myself .. just a walk .. After the pigeon hunt and a glass of ice tea in Flowers, me and Vio went out separate ways, to our shady homes.. Got my music playin`, and started heading to the buss station. I was looking at my phone, trying to write a nice sms for Ada .. and I just got disconnected. Disconnected from the world, disconnected from my thoughts, from the people walking by me, from the noise in the street, from my feet, from my body, from everything .. I couldn`t feel myself, I couldn`t feel anything surrounding me, not the sun, not the wind, nothing .. I could only hear music, and everything was peaceful .. kept on walking by instinct .. it was like I was walking with my eyes closed. Such a great fuckin` feeling .. When I got to the post office, I realized what just happened .. and .. I was full of joy, full of happiness .. Dunno .. I just felt like no one could reach me, like I`m in another world, and I can do anything .. Felt like dancing all the way to the bus station, but I didn`t :P .. Maybe next time I will ! .. Oh yea, forgot to say I didn`t get enough sleep last night, so maybe I was just sleepwalking :)) .. Free hugs to everybody, and have a peaceful, chilly sleep ;) Maybe I`ll tell you about some of my weird dreams tomorrow .. Gn ! .. song of the day ..

An old man turned ninety-eight
He won the lottery and died the next day
It's a black fly in your Chardonnay
It's a death row pardon two minutes too late
And isn't it ironic... don't you think

It's like rain on your wedding day
It's a free ride when you've already paid
It's the good advice that you just didn't take
Who would've thought... it figures

Mr. Play It Safe was afraid to fly
He packed his suitcase and kissed his kids goodbye
He waited his whole damn life to take that flight
And as the plane crashed down he thought
"Well isn't this nice..."
And isn't it ironic... don't you think

It's like rain on your wedding day
It's a free ride when you've already paid
It's the good advice that you just didn't take
Who would've thought... it figures

Well life has a funny way of sneaking up on you
When you think everything's okay and everything's going right
And life has a funny way of helping you out when
You think everything's gone wrong and everything blows up
In your face

A traffic jam when you're already late
A no-smoking sign on your cigarette break
It's like ten thousand spoons when all you need is a knife
It's meeting the man of my dreams
And then meeting his beautiful wife
And isn't it ironic...don't you think
A little too ironic...and, yeah, I really do think...

It's like rain on your wedding day
It's a free ride when you've already paid
It's the good advice that you just didn't take
Who would've thought... it figures

Life has a funny way of sneaking up on you
Life has a funny, funny way of helping you out
Helping you out

Alanis Morissette - Ironic

a day I`ve lost count of ..

2007-06-16T00:23:00.000+03:00

.. ok .. so .. I haven`t really been respecting my own rule, with posting daily .. doesn`t matter .. I always do that (not on purpose) ..

.. haven`t done a lot today, but I`ve done a few things yesterday, but I`m too lazy to spit them out here now .. The most important things are that Adi had his festivities, he finally finished high school. And I got a Happy Meal .. a really happy one ! .. so my new friend is Mr. Gingerbread Man :D .. he talks .. and waves .. but that`s yesterdays tale :P .. so .. congrats sweet cuz >:D< and thanks ;) ..

.. as for today, I found a new song that I love .. Alexi Murdoch - Orange Sky .. it`s so peaceful, I can`t get enough of it. It`s from House MD Soundtrack. I still have a season left to see. :)

I started learning for my exam. It`s ok, I understand the shit but .. it`s too damn hot to learn, and I lose interest when I see that every course has 30 pages .. Oh well, I still have time. But it`s nice and interesting. Object Oriented Programming. The interesting funny thing I learned is that "B is a friend of A if it has access to the private members of A" .. it`s about classes, so don`t get any funny ideas ;) ..

Yesterday, I thought about death some more .. cause I had a discussion with a friend. I tried to encourage him to have faith in himself, and to think that everything will be ok eventually, cause we all have our ups and downs, and of course, I gave him arguments that will work with him, cause he`s a man of faith. So I tried a God approach. He told me I`ve made him so happy. I asked why .. He said that it`s because of hearing me talk that way. Cause only protestants talk that way, or people in search of God ...
So I thought .. there`s no right or wrong, in some cases. I`m not talking about crimes or murder or anything. I`m talking about points of view, ideas .. You can`t impose your own opinion to people. It`s all about the arguments. It`s all about proving your point. I found myself finding PRO arguments for stuff I don`t believe in, or I don`t totally agree with. But, I used the arguments that I knew will win my "case". So, there`s no black or white .. it`s all gray. Depends what you wanna prove, that is a dark gray or a white gray. :)
I often tend to be right. I`m once in a while wrong, but most of the times I`m right. Maybe it`s not cause I`m so well documented. Cause frankly, I`m not. I think I just push my opinion, and .. give a right argument for it. It doesn`t matter that sometimes, two days later, I stumble upon something and understand I wasn`t exactly right. But still, most of the times, I am :)) .. it`s not always fun, cause I see what`s coming my way sooner than I should ..

.. Oh well .. I should stop now .. I just wanted to say that talkin` to Alvaro (at last !) about Googles Gadgets, and Einsteins Quote of The Day ( iGoogle (what do you know, it`s all about the i`s these days, iPod, iRan, iRack, iMBored) - try it) he said he should have his own Quote of The Day. So .. why shouldn`t I ? :P .. It`ll be fun, to remember stuff I said a week ago, a month ago, a year ago.. :)
I`m gonna start quote of the day tomorrow, cause I don`t remember what I said today :)

May we all have a chilly night ;)

Beginning of day two

2007-06-09T13:03:00.000+03:00

.. There are so many times when I wonder "why even bother if I feel that it`s all in vain ?" .. but then .. I know it wouldn`t be me if I didn`t .. It wouldn`t be me if I wouldn`t care so much about everything surrounding me, if I wouldn`t try to fix everything .. if I wouldn`t try to be nice and helpful .. It would just be the world, the environment changing me. But that`s just easy .. giving in .. A lot of people do that ..

.. No Need To Argue - The Cranberries ..

There's no need to argue anymore.
I gave all I could, but it left me so sore.
And the thing that makes me mad,
Is the one thing that I had,

I knew, I knew,
I'd lose you.
You'll always be special to me,
Special to me, to me.

And I remember all the things we once shared,
Watching T.V. movies on the living room armchair.
But they say it will work out fine.
Was it all a waste of time.

'Cause I knew, I knew,
I'd lose you.
You'll always be special to me,
Special to me, to me.

Will I forget in time, ah,
You said I was on your mind?
There's no need to argue,
No need to argue anymore.
There's no need to argue anymore.

.. oh yea .. a Happy Happy Birthday too Danii ! >:D< .. at least one good thing today .. and maybe the second good thing will be the movie "Forever Blues" :P ..

Day one ..

2007-06-09T04:12:00.000+03:00

So .. this is gonna be my blog .. for a while .. hmm ..

I told Vio I`ll write this so she`ll know what`s goin` on in my head, what songs I obsessively listen to, and that I won`t get any funny ideas as to go and strangle myself on the highest tree I find.
Oh well .. maybe I am not wise enough to understand this world well enough to see that killing myself is the better option. :) .. Maybe it`s better this way ..
I wonder if all the philosophers made a bet.. "I bet my words make more people commit suicide than your words" .. Geez .. frankly .. after seeing how many commited suicide .. dunno .. I think they really wanted to pull as many as they could down with them ..
Anyway .. doesn`t matter .. I still don`t understand and don`t wanna keep thinking about why two different girl (yea yea, identical twins, strong bond, lived together, died together, .. I have a few scenarios .. but still .. they are soo .. on a wild side) would kill themselves at the same time. How come one let herself be convinced into this stupid idea, or .. Doesn`t matter .. I`m babbling on and on about this shit .. It`ll end now .. I think .. I`ll never find out anyway .. even if they speculate about it .. it`s still .. not the real deal ..

But still .. Why that stupid song ? .. I keep hearing "I know what I want, and I want it now" .. but .. it just gives me a weird yucky feeling .. whatever .. at least pick a great song if you`re gonna commit suicide :)) .. Like that question that ran around yahoo .. "What song would you want to be played at your funeral ?" .. hmm .. I have a list or somth with answers from some friends.. from 2 or 3 years ago.. Corul national - Il silenzio , Class - Intr-o zi , Prodigy - Molotov bitch , God bless america! , Bed of roses , Ocean Lab - Satellite , Manowar - Carry on , OCS - moksha , Ana Johnson - We Are , Guns - Don`t cry , Come as u are , Godsmack - Voodoo .
I think I chose Eagles - Hotel California ..

Soooo .. the song I annoy my neighbors with this time of month is .. Chicane - No Ordinary Morning .. got it from Noemi .. great song ..

OK so .. in another order of business .. Two more days of TIFF .. I wanna see as many movies as I can, cause after these two days, one more year of waiting .. And who knows what song I might stumble upon till next year ;) .. (I`m just teasing .. I think :-").. I`ll make a list of movies I`ve seen, and a few impressions, after the Festival is over.

Two more exams, I have all the time in the world .. the ruff times have passed .. No more damn deadlines .. Dead .. again .. damn .. :) ..
Some other stuff also goin` on, but I`d rather keep them to myself ..

As for my friends, Adi most of all, good luck with your studies, just a few weeks more and you`ll be a free man ;), Vio, Noemi, Anne and all the other students .. make haste ! :)) (I think that`s from Heroes), and for all you WoW freaks, lvl up, go pwn teh alliance or somth like that :))) .. For the Horde !

.. one last thing I gotta say .. Alvaro come back home ! .. I miss those long weird nonsence chats that can only be procesed by our brains .. cause they really help me get my mind off dead people, losing friends, and stuff like that ..

oh yeah .. P.S. .. I`m starting to fear that I`m gonna trip on some "body" when I get out of the house .. so .. if you are going to kill yourself, please .. do it somewhere more private, not on the side of the road .. where people might see you and get traumas for life .. Thanks, happy afterlife or somth ..

.. and to all a Good Night !

>:D< Free Hugs !!! >:D<

2006-11-20T14:05:00.000+02:00

About the Free Hugs Campaign

.. And now here`s one from me too you ! ..

Darth Symphony

2006-11-20T13:53:00.000+02:00

Sudoku

2006-09-14T00:09:00.000+03:00

.. Love this game ! ..

.. thoughts on the bus ..

2006-03-30T00:53:00.000+03:00

.. behind those huge lips was me ..
The sad pathetic lonely girl that finds confort in making other people laugh.
..

Danger, Will Robinson ! Danger !

2005-11-09T20:37:00.000+02:00

.. well .. o zi normala .. in sfasit am terminat si eu curatenia in camera .. puteti veni la mine daca n-aveti nimic mai bun de facut .. I`ll be expecting you ! :D .. (dar cat mai curand, sa nu apuc sa fac iar dezordine :P)

.. ce-a fost mai special azi ? .. hmm .. well let me see ..

.. Totul a fost normal .. m-am trezit cu greu dimineata, am ajuns la seminarul unde am murit de plictiseala .. am ajuns acasa m-am tolanit in fata calculatorului .. mi s-a facut somn si-am adormit .. Intr-un final a ajuns Adi, varul meu, la mine.. si cum mie imi era somn .. l-am rugat sa dea volumul mai incet si sa se joace acolo Quake .. Cand m-a trezit .. dupa vreo ora jumate .. ma intreaba ..
Ioana .. tu stii ca vorbesti in somn ? ..
.. ii spun eu ca mi s-a mai intamplat sa rad in somn .. si-l intreb .. de ce ? .. ce-am zis ? ..
" pai .. la un moment dat tot trageam eu acolo, si-am crezut ca te-am trezit .. si m-am uitat la tine si-ai intrebat '' ce-ai impuscat ? O zebra ! '' si te-ai intors pe partea cealalta si ai continuat sa dormi .. "
.. clar ca o ras de mine ! .. I-am povestit la mama, si o zis ca m-o mai auzit si ea vorbind prin somn :) ..

.. So .. beware ! .. It`s not safe to be near me when I sleep either, cause I still talk nonsence then too !

Return of The .. Ioana ?

2005-10-31T20:43:00.000+02:00

.. amu cica .. o fost odata (ca niciodata), ca daca n-ar fi nu s-ar mai povesti ..

Intr-o imparatie maaare, hai s-o numim "Politehnica", o curte domneasca (sa-i zicem Sediul Central). Si in acest Sediu Central, niste tineri cavaleri se plictiseau.
Dupa o tura de umblat pe holurile politehnicii in cautarea de postere cu oferte de Job-uri (pt ora de engleza) si dupa vreo o ora si ceva din seminarul plicticos .. eu si un coleg (let`s call him Razvan) ne hotaram sa facem pe Gedaii (Jedi pentru necunoscatori), ne intreceam in manuirea lightsaberelor (postere rasucite). Si poc, si pac .. cate una peste cap, peste maini .. peste ce apucam .. Si .. imi vne mie stralucita idee sa in arat skillul in manuirea de duals .. Nici n-am apucat sa gasesc a doua arma, ca sare Dark Sith Lord-ul (profa) si ne dezarmeaza !
Ne-a luat lightsaberele si le-a pus pe catedra (stateam in prima banca, catedra chiar in fata noastra), si in plus ne-a amenintat ca ne da afara din Imperiu. Partea faina din ora s-o dus. Am ramas iar sa ma uit pe pereti .. pe geam .. pe tava si pe catedra (la sabiile noastre care zaceau acolo). Asa dupa vreo 10-15 minute .. imi aduc aminte ca pot sa folosesc Forta pentru a recupera armele. Dar Forta nu prea era de partea mea .. si ma chinui eu ce ma chinui, dar nimic .. Ii spun si la Razvan ce incerc eu sa fac (ca poate daca suntem doi, reusim sa stapanim Forta asta).. si pufnim amandoi in ras ..
In timp ce radeam infundat sa nu ma auda profa .. (io eram pe spate de ras) .. celalalt de langa mine (sa-i zicem Paul) tot nu pricepea ce naiba am patit .. si cand ma intorceam sa-i spun .. ma pufnea si mai tare rasu ..
Profa sustinea ca ne e rau, si ne invita afara, insa eu incercam s-o conving de contrariu, in timp ce ma bagam pe sub mese si cu capu` in ghiozdane ca sa ma opresc din ras ..
Intr-un final am reusit sa-i scriu pe hartie la Paul.. "I`m using the force to get my lightsaber back" ..
Nu va mai explic ca s-o apucat si Paul sa rada ..
S-o enervat profa pana la urma si a insistat sa plecam .. dar am reusit sa ne stapanim, sa nu trecem de partea intunecata a Fortei .. si am ramas cuminti la locurile noastre minutele care au mai ramas din ora ..

The End