So .. this is gonna be my blog .. for a while .. hmm ..

I told Vio I`ll write this so she`ll know what`s goin` on in my head, what songs I obsessively listen to, and that I won`t get any funny ideas as to go and strangle myself on the highest tree I find.
Oh well .. maybe I am not wise enough to understand this world well enough to see that killing myself is the better option. :) .. Maybe it`s better this way ..
I wonder if all the philosophers made a bet.. "I bet my words make more people commit suicide than your words" .. Geez .. frankly .. after seeing how many commited suicide .. dunno .. I think they really wanted to pull as many as they could down with them ..
Anyway .. doesn`t matter .. I still don`t understand and don`t wanna keep thinking about why two different girl (yea yea, identical twins, strong bond, lived together, died together, .. I have a few scenarios .. but still .. they are soo .. on a wild side) would kill themselves at the same time. How come one let herself be convinced into this stupid idea, or .. Doesn`t matter .. I`m babbling on and on about this shit .. It`ll end now .. I think .. I`ll never find out anyway .. even if they speculate about it .. it`s still .. not the real deal ..

But still .. Why that stupid song ? .. I keep hearing "I know what I want, and I want it now" .. but .. it just gives me a weird yucky feeling .. whatever .. at least pick a great song if you`re gonna commit suicide :)) .. Like that question that ran around yahoo .. "What song would you want to be played at your funeral ?" .. hmm .. I have a list or somth with answers from some friends.. from 2 or 3 years ago.. Corul national - Il silenzio , Class - Intr-o zi , Prodigy - Molotov bitch , God bless america! , Bed of roses , Ocean Lab - Satellite , Manowar - Carry on , OCS - moksha , Ana Johnson - We Are , Guns - Don`t cry , Come as u are , Godsmack - Voodoo .
I think I chose Eagles - Hotel California ..

Soooo .. the song I annoy my neighbors with this time of month is .. Chicane - No Ordinary Morning .. got it from Noemi .. great song ..

OK so .. in another order of business .. Two more days of TIFF .. I wanna see as many movies as I can, cause after these two days, one more year of waiting .. And who knows what song I might stumble upon till next year ;) .. (I`m just teasing .. I think :-").. I`ll make a list of movies I`ve seen, and a few impressions, after the Festival is over.

Two more exams, I have all the time in the world .. the ruff times have passed .. No more damn deadlines .. Dead .. again .. damn .. :) ..
Some other stuff also goin` on, but I`d rather keep them to myself ..

As for my friends, Adi most of all, good luck with your studies, just a few weeks more and you`ll be a free man ;), Vio, Noemi, Anne and all the other students .. make haste ! :)) (I think that`s from Heroes), and for all you WoW freaks, lvl up, go pwn teh alliance or somth like that :))) .. For the Horde !


.. one last thing I gotta say .. Alvaro come back home ! .. I miss those long weird nonsence chats that can only be procesed by our brains .. cause they really help me get my mind off dead people, losing friends, and stuff like that ..


oh yeah .. P.S. .. I`m starting to fear that I`m gonna trip on some "body" when I get out of the house .. so .. if you are going to kill yourself, please .. do it somewhere more private, not on the side of the road .. where people might see you and get traumas for life .. Thanks, happy afterlife or somth ..

.. and to all a Good Night !

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